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When I started this blog, my goal was to find a way to document and navigate the chaos caused by jealousy and spiteful behavior. It wasn't intended for public consumption; rather, it was a means to keep a record of the challenges related to short-term memory and the confusion resulting from others' lack of understanding about Alzheimer's disease and the complexities of perception versus reality in this new world we live in. Today, the blog has evolved into a mix of factual information, personal records, and a comparison of different perspectives - "us" versus "them." This reflects the ever-changing nature of reality, encapsulating the past, present, and a glimpse into the future. The emotional toll that caregivers bear due to mistreatment from many individuals is significant. In its way, Dazey Dog serves as a source of therapy. I am grateful to those who have unwittingly trained me to be who I am today, and who will shape who I become in the future, be it tomorrow, next month, or the years to come. Additionally, the documentation serves as a paper trail to refute the unfounded accusations and name-calling I have endured, often based on the psychological concept of projecting one's actions onto others. One has to question the end result wanted or the goals: What is your ultimate goal? What is mine? Do you know? Who are you harming? What do you gain? What do I gain? If you play with the bull, you will get the horn. Lester said this on one of his visits deep into cognitive issues when he thought I was his sister on the dairy farm. He was 76, and I was barely 18. Are you feeling excluded? Are you feeling left out because of someone else? Do you even realize it? The conversation about double standards discussed on the blog wasn't private; it was on speaker with others around. It's no longer difficult to prove who said what, even if you've become smarter and stopped putting your rant in text for one to read repeatedly. What do any of you know about reality here? 3-10 minute conversations or a 45-minute lunch where the one only wants to feel and be treated as though everything in the world of short-term memory is normal, not confused, and without context… You don't live in my world, and if you wrote this, you are one of the few who have the guts to think you know and judge based on your ill-conceived ego-driven prideful stupidity. What do you learn in 10 minutes of video or phone chats? One-hour holiday pickups - can't even make an outing long enough to get a clue because nothing is more important than your needs or wants in your own life. Come at me - I always have receipts with this crew. I'll do as you do. If I were to delay responding to a simple question or update for days, I would face severe criticism. However, I'm currently facing condemnation for questioning double standards and stating, "Fine, I'll just do it your way and ignore the consequences..." Day 2 of foolishness arose due to someone's malicious and envious behavior. I am drained and will end it here - the guardian had given up on me long before it was crucial. It wasn't me abandoning him. The rest gave up on me when I refused to tolerate the disorder and returned to a peaceful life with less drama and none of the chaos brought into my home. As they could no longer benefit from her or me. Perhaps the next blog post will delve into the hypocrisy of the others and who truly lives the fictional life I'm accused of projecting... Caring for someone with Alzheimer's symptoms in memory care can be an emotionally and physically demanding task that impacts not only the individual receiving care but also those closely involved in the caregiving process. The challenges of managing the symptoms of Alzheimer's, such as memory loss, confusion, and behavioral changes, can take a toll on caregivers as they strive to provide the best possible support and assistance. In this context, maintaining consistency and a structured routine becomes crucial for the well-being and quality of life of the person with Alzheimer's. Consistency helps reduce feelings of confusion and disorientation, providing stability and security for the individual. A predictable routine can also help manage behavioral issues and improve overall mood and cognitive function. Caregivers need to set up a daily routine that incorporates consistent activities, meals, and breaks to provide a familiar and reassuring setting for individuals with Alzheimer's. By including activities like word puzzles (with "Words with Friends" being a preferred choice on this journey), music therapy, reading, watching "Perry Mason," or gentle exercises that engage both the mind and body, caregivers can support cognitive function and overall physical well-being. Creating a strong support network is essential for caregivers to prevent burnout and maintain their well-being. Seeking assistance from healthcare professionals, support groups, or respite care services can provide much-needed relief and guidance for caregivers facing the challenges of caring for someone with Alzheimer's. Friends and family are important sources of support as well. Overall, caring for someone with Alzheimer's symptoms in memory care facilities can be an emotionally and physically draining experience for caregivers. The constant need for attention, the challenges in communication, and the progressive nature of the disease can take a toll on the individual receiving care and the caregivers involved in the process. Caregivers must prioritize consistency and routine in their care approach. Establishing a structured daily routine can help individuals with Alzheimer's feel more secure and comfortable in their environment. Consistency in caregiving practices, such as maintaining familiar schedules and environments, can also reduce confusion and anxiety for the individual. Self-care is essential for caregivers to maintain their well-being while providing care for others. Taking breaks, seeking support from other caregivers or professionals, and engaging in activities that bring joy and relaxation are all important aspects of self-care for caregivers. When caregivers feel overwhelmed or unsupported, it can lead to burnout and decreased quality of care for the individual with Alzheimer's. Caregivers need to recognize their limits and seek help when needed, whether through respite care services, support groups, or counseling. It can be challenging when the outside world, including friends, family, or even medical professionals, believes they know better than the caregivers doing the 24/7 work. This lack of understanding can be frustrating and isolating for caregivers, potentially hindering the quality of care provided to the individual with Alzheimer's. Ultimately, by prioritizing consistency, routine, and self-care, caregivers can help improve the quality of life for both the individual with Alzheimer's and themselves. Caregivers need to advocate for their needs, seek support when necessary, and approach caregiving with compassion and understanding.

The feeling of the unknown can be overwhelmingly frightening, especially when it seems to have no end. It lurks in the shadows, making its presence known in the quiet of the night, causing unease and restlessness. It manifests in simple yet unsettling ways, such as the nagging uncertainty of what the next day holds or the doubt of whether the stove was left on. These seemingly mundane uncertainties can quickly spiral into anxious thoughts and feelings. The unknown can take on sinister and complex natures, leaving one grappling with profound questions and uncertainties. It raises existential queries about the nature of reality and the passage of time. The disorienting experience of retracing one's steps, only to find gaps in memory and a disconnection from one's own experiences, can be deeply disconcerting. Moreover, the unknown can manifest in physical and mental health challenges, such as the insidious onset of Alzheimer's disease. The gradual erosion of short-term memory and the disconcerting blurring of emotions without a clear context can be harbingers of a frightening journey into the depths of the unknown. Ultimately, the unknown is a vast and multifaceted realm that encompasses both the mundane and the profound, the everyday uncertainties and the existential mysteries that lie beyond our comprehension. It serves as a reminder of the fragility of our understanding of the world and the inherent unpredictability of life itself. . The unknown is sometimes an intentional game, but truthfully, after living the last 7-9 years of constant inconsistencies, I can say that in our journey, nothing is further from the truth. There are no hidden games or manipulation in our path. Short-term memory can be a blessing and a curse depending on the subject. Sometimes a topic will last days and days before the loop creates a reset, and the vague memories of discontent are lost to the imagination of maybe... and depending on the topic, rearranged to best fit the feelings. If the importance is in the topic but the subject matter is too disturbing, it could become lost in the confusion of details and regurgitate in different forms to try and connect the dots. Clear path or hazy fog, perception, and feelings guide the result. Nothing more, never less. Short-term memory loss in our journey is all about logic and feelings. Strong verbal skills and a desire to connect to other humans have blessed us in life as we know it today, instead of the past being the past. The past is our future. Majoring in English and minoring in psychology was interrupted by a 6-week hiatus caused by the college closing due to civil unrest and riots, preventing the attainment of the coveted piece of paper. Life's journey takes unexpected turns with the responsibilities of marriage, children, and consequential life choices, shaping outcomes positively or negatively depending on one's current perspective. The element of the unknown plays a crucial role in navigating real-time challenges. Even when left unspoken, the unknown remains daunting. A cheerful facade conceals uncertainties, while adhering to a regular routine alleviates fears, fostering a sense of control and self-reliance. This structured approach to daily life offers a comforting semblance of normalcy amidst the unsettling fear of the unknown. The ambiguity persists because life is often a complex interplay of layered uncertainties. Why does it feel so obscure? Because life, at times, comprises a multitude of intricate and enigmatic unknowns. It's like that 1000-piece puzzle: All the pieces are in a pile on the table. The picture on the box is beautiful. Some key pieces have not been found yet. I need the key pieces to create the picture. I'm getting frustrated. Why won't the pieces fit? Fuck it, the puzzle goes back in the box for someone else to figure out. Todays puzzle is 75% completed with another 15% coming with a quickness. The questions out way the answers and the answers are so complicated. I don't know how to feel. I don't know how to change that. I don't know how to feel. I'm not sure I wanna try. Someday I just might. There is a song that is currently playing that is stuck in my head. The words above are how they sound in my head when that song plays. When did it end~ all the enjoyment... I don't know how I feel. Someday I might. I think I forgot how to be happy, something I'm not but someday I can be. Something I'm made for... I didn't get what I wanted, but I'm getting what I need. There is quite a difference if you walk the road with someone dear. The journey is always worth it no matter the difficulty and chaos each day, hour, minute, or month brings.

BOHICA: A military acronym from the Vietnam War, BOHICA stands for "Bend Over, Here It Comes Again." The term describes a recurring negative situation, advising acceptance. I discovered the acronym recently and sought clarification from a friend to avoid unintentional offense. The duality in life fascinates me in relationships formed and kept throughout the years. Mother/daughter, Father/Son, Friend/Foe. As a child, a man is abused and emotionally tortured to say things like "I would never repeat to my..." only never to realize that he lost the war because he repeated history in triplicate. A young girl swears she will get out and never return, and one day, her eyes opened: BOHICA: each year and every relationship for the horrible moments to endure. It isn't about a specific group, but more similar tales of woe due to questions that are asked of me to answer. Things I think of with BOHICA: Questions: So, are you the one in every family that everyone hates? Are you the one who has to make the hard choices? Who helps you? Answers: Yep Yep Yep. I'm no saint. I am human. For those who don't know, I am flesh and blood. I might have an emotion once or twice a year. I even have tear ducts. They are a little dusty these days, but I do have them. I do not do anything another in my position would not do. I give care to the one who needs care. I was born for this! I was prepped at 2 weeks old, placed in a clothes basket (I mean, there were pillows and blankets too) on the floorboard of a rolling car for around a thousand miles or so. Life direction forever changed for all involved. It isn't one story per human, it is one story with all the characters present. The outline of the story looks like the direction took a dark view. The preview reads with the understanding the end is not clear—proceed with caution. This, of course, is a blend of differing viewpoints depending on the character in the primary camera lens. One-character viewpoint movies are so last year! To keep the attention of a wider audience, it's important to consider multiple perspectives at the same time, as attention deficit issues are common in our society. They all have cliques and pseudonyms. The Others is a name for the ones who wish me dead, of course, as long as I do all the things and jump through hoops for all the things: Alzheimer's caregiver diaries~ BUT ~shut the hell up and stay loyal to a narrative no one ever believed because the humans are not blind. Truth hurts, but secrets kill. I'm gonna go with easing the pain, fuck the laying on the sword shit. Loyalty is earned but sometimes given anyway, for the greater good. The Greater GOOD. How can so many humans and The Others alike not get that? Know your fucking role for the greater good of another! How do you not get that I do the things because SHE WOULD, HAS, DID, IS! Trust. That is all she ever gave and still has. How do you not get it? How much do I have to bleed and scream to get that through? IT WAS NEVER ABOUT ME, BUT it will be my cross to bear. Unfortunately, I am truthful and iPhones were not around in the ancient days of history. Every day, revisit past memories revised sometimes in minutes on repeat. As a caregiver for Alzheimer's patients, focus on short-term memory loss, while also retaining a wealth of detailed recollections from the past. Dazeydog~The way to fucking cope with the chaos. Conversations that I was not a part of, yet behind the scenes trying to calm the chaos. Short-term memory for a highly intelligent mind who sounds perfectly reasonable or by another accusation "coached." The edited version, reveals the authentic journey of a troubled individual toward finding equilibrium: Disassociation PTSD Moderate OCD Capable Individual Adopts a hands-on learning approach; Proficient in mastering various subjects! Endure the repercussions of trauma from around 76 years ago until approximately 2021. BOHICA~ Bend over; here it comes again. The memory is long, and the replay is interesting to document in caregiving for memory care of the Alzheimer's variety. Perceptions differ, and critical dates get slightly twisted, but the general plot line and factual history are fascinating and more complex. When delving into the realm of caregiving for individuals with Alzheimer's disease, the intricate nature of memory care becomes even more apparent. The memories held by these individuals are not just fleeting moments but intricate tapestries woven across their lives. Documenting these memories is akin to preserving a piece of their essence, a task that requires both sensitivity and precision. One of the most intriguing aspects of providing memory care for those with Alzheimer's is the way perceptions can vary. As memories are revisited and shared, critical dates and events may become slightly distorted or intertwined. However, amidst this apparent confusion, there lies a deeper understanding of the individual's unique perspective and lived experiences. The true complexity of a person's personal history is revealed through the twists and turns in memory. Navigating the spiderweb of memories in Alzheimer's care is not just about recalling past events; it is a journey into the very core of a person's identity. Each memory, no matter how fragmented or altered, contains a piece of the individual's story. By carefully documenting and preserving these memories, caregivers not only honor the person's past but also gain valuable insights into their present reality. In essence, the process of caregiving for memory care of the Alzheimer's variety is a profound exploration of the human experience. It is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the enduring power of memory, even in the face of cognitive decline. Through patience, empathy, and a deep appreciation for the complexity of memory, caregivers can create a meaningful and enriching environment for those in their care. The changes are coming; I can see it. I don't know what the changes are, and no one does~ but the signs have been around since March 2023, and October is almost here. I'm the main character in this story. And yet, I am not. I'm the support and caregiver who cannot find a path forward with the people the one in care is holding on to. The World Class Vicious Bitch~ using the term Caregiver as a way for "Strangers to give me fucking sympathy". The only fucks I give: The care of another. I promised. I keep my promises. Career. I have to pay for ALL the things. The details of the past come with receipts. Peaceful life moving forward with my Best. 49 years of BOHICA is exhausting. When the day comes: A hallmark ending is requested, not the next Lifetime Docuseries. Until the next time

Navigating the complex landscape of memory care for individuals with Alzheimer's is a deeply intricate and emotionally demanding task. The challenges caregivers face in this setting are multifaceted and can often feel overwhelming. Providing compassionate and effective care requires a delicate balance of patience, understanding, and expertise. In the context of Alzheimer's care, the importance of support and assistance cannot be overstated. Caregivers rely on a network of resources, including medical professionals, support groups, and specialized facilities, to ensure the well-being of their loved ones. However, even with these resources in place, the task of caring for someone with Alzheimer's remains daunting. One of the most significant obstacles caregivers face is the denial of the reality they are experiencing. When external environments fail to acknowledge the challenges and complexities of Alzheimer's care, it can exacerbate feelings of isolation and frustration. The lack of positive assistance and understanding from those outside the caregiving circle can make an already difficult situation feels almost impossible to manage. To provide the best possible care for individuals with Alzheimer's, caregivers need to receive the support and assistance they need. By recognizing the unique challenges of Alzheimer's care and working together to address them, we can create a more compassionate and understanding environment for both caregivers and those in their care. Years of a video log and text receipts. You want personal- test me… we are on fucking day three, and you all are emotionally destroying her. Stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What is your end game? What sick pleasure do you get from bursting her bubble and causing her so much emotional distress? Someone, please explain the guest's comment: "You are upset that you are taking care of the one person programmed to love you. Very sad." Like, what the fuck? How mean and confusing this is... And I can say without doubt who wrote this.

Seriously, this is so common sense. The wellness check in question is with a licensed doctor from a trusted source paid by the insurance. These wellness checks are typically routine examinations to ensure the individual's health and well-being are properly monitored and maintained. They are proactive measures aimed at preventing potential health issues and promoting overall wellness. Some insurance companies like Humana conduct a wellness check each year as a standard practice once the policy goes into effect along with Medicare and Social Security. A visit from a local Elderly Affairs office is a serious matter that arises when allegations of abuse or neglect towards an elderly individual have been reported. This visit is crucial as it serves to address concerns regarding the safety and overall well-being of the elderly person in question. The primary objective of such visits is to conduct a thorough investigation into the reported allegations to ascertain the validity of the claims and to ensure that the individual's welfare is safeguarded. During these visits, trained professionals from the Elderly Affairs office typically engage in a comprehensive assessment of the living conditions, physical and mental health status, and the general treatment of the elderly individual. They may interview the elderly person, caregivers, family members, and other relevant parties to gather information and insights into the situation. If abuse or neglect is substantiated during the investigation, the Elderly Affairs office will take appropriate actions to address the issue. This may involve providing support services, arranging for alternative living arrangements, or even involving law enforcement if necessary to ensure the safety and protection of the elderly individual. Overall, a visit from a local Elderly Affairs office in response to reports of abuse or neglect signifies a crucial step towards safeguarding the rights and well-being of vulnerable elderly individuals in our communities. It underscores the importance of upholding ethical standards of care and respect for our elderly population, ensuring they are treated with dignity and receive the support and protection they deserve. You might wonder why this is confusing at such an early hour on a Monday morning. The confusion may arise due to the different nature and purposes of these two types of visits. A wellness check is proactive and preventive, while a visit from Elderly Affairs is reactive and investigative in response to reported concerns. It seems an early phone call with someone trying to explain the schedule for today was asked multiple times if it was protective services vs. a wellness check. This confusion highlights the importance of clear communication and understanding the distinctions between various types of visits and services, especially when dealing with sensitive matters related to the well-being of individuals, particularly the elderly. The one being questioned, to clarify. My questions are as follows: If protective services were not called, wouldn't it stand to reason that a wellness check is just that? Did someone call protective services? I have nothing to hide. I called them at the beginning of the year when we had to hire an attorney due to a written request. Maybe you don't know what's going on here because you never actually ask the one who knows - the caregiver giving care to someone who is, in fact, in memory care at home. One human who desperately seeks the attention of one specific human with 55+ years of history will never receive it, while those who are cruel effortlessly possess it for a lesser time vested and disregard its value. The past memories remain vivid, while the present is overwhelming and unsettling, prompting the mind to construct a protective bubble for safety. The comfort lies in memories, while the present is perceived as tumultuous and intimidating. In the intricate tapestry of life, there often emerges a singular individual who possesses the keen insight to decipher hidden messages and truly grasp their profound meanings. While this perceptive soul heeds the warnings and learns from the lessons embedded within the fabric of existence, others may unknowingly squander precious time and opportunities. As the relentless march of time accelerates, those who fail to comprehend the significance of the signs before them find themselves trapped in a cycle of stagnation. The passage of years becomes more than a mere measure of time; it becomes a stark reminder of the choices made and the paths untaken. The fractures of the past, the unresolved conflicts, and the forgotten promises loom large, casting a shadow over the present and dimming the prospects of a brighter future. In this unfolding Shakespearean drama of memory loss, the narrative takes on a poignant hue, highlighting the fragility of human existence and the inevitability of decline. Amidst this turbulent sea of uncertainty, there stands a figure grappling with the ravages of Alzheimer's, a cruel thief of memories and identities. As the world outside remains indifferent to the struggles of the individual in need of care and support, the burden of ensuring safety and quality of life falls upon those closest in proximity. The challenges of navigating the complexities of at-home care, the emotional toll of witnessing the gradual erosion of a loved one's sense of self, and the unyielding march of time all converge to form a poignant backdrop to this tale of resilience and compassion. Dazey Thoughts for a Monday Musing rainy day... Shouldn't the world outside, with its vast array of resources and capabilities, prioritize offering compassionate and understanding support to individuals with Alzheimer's and other memory-related conditions? It is crucial that when caregivers advocate for specific improvements to enhance the quality of life for those in the later stages of these conditions, the response from society should be one of empathy and action. These individuals and their caregivers are already navigating a complex and challenging journey, filled with uncertainties and emotional strain. By extending a helping hand and actively working towards creating a more conducive environment for them, we can contribute significantly to alleviating the chaos and stress that often accompany these conditions. In a world that is constantly evolving and advancing, it is essential to recognize the needs of those who may require additional support due to cognitive impairments. Simple adjustments in public spaces, healthcare facilities, and community services can make a world of difference for individuals with Alzheimer's and other memory-related conditions. By fostering a culture of inclusivity and understanding, we can ensure that these individuals are not isolated or overlooked but embraced and accommodated. Empowering caregivers to advocate for improvements and changes that can enhance the quality of life for their loved ones is a crucial step toward creating a more supportive society for those living with Alzheimer's and other memory-related conditions. It is a collective responsibility to ensure that individuals with cognitive impairments are treated with dignity, respect, and kindness, regardless of the challenges. By coming together as a community to offer support and understanding, we can create a more compassionate world for everyone, especially those who need it most. Establish a routine. Maintain consistency. Paying attention to small details ensures a smoother experience for the remaining time. Prioritize effective communication and meticulous care.

It's intriguing how the themes of blocking and disconnect resurface, indicating a complex interplay of emotions and experiences. The need for redaction to protect the sensitive aspects of individuals referred to as "The Others" adds a layer of mystery and intrigue to the narrative. The exploration of the mind as a powerful tool, especially in the face of short-term memory issues, sheds light on the resilience and adaptability of the human psyche. The contrast between short-term and long-term memory, and the role of technology in bridging this gap, highlights the intricate relationship between memory and external aids. The acknowledgment of raw and intense emotions that need resolution is a pivotal step toward personal growth and healing. By delving into the introspective journey of reliving past experiences from a different perspective, individuals gain a profound insight into the intricate workings of memory and perception, unraveling the layers of complexity that shape their understanding of self. During the journey of self-exploration, one can develop a deep empathy and understanding for the storyteller's point of view, which enhances the connection and resonance with the human experience. By valuing all experiences, regardless of their nature, the importance of empathy and acceptance in navigating life's challenges is underscored. Moreover, incorporating medical obstacles into the story adds a feeling of immediacy and susceptibility, highlighting the delicate nature of human life and the strength needed to face challenges directly. This acts as a powerful reminder of the steadfast determination and courage necessary to overcome hurdles and confront individual battles with unwavering bravery. Essentially, the story conveys a strong message about resilience, determination, and the relentless drive to overcome difficulties, highlighting the unbreakable human resolve to conquer obstacles and emerge more resilient in the end. Conversations regarding the caregiver's role are crucial as they play a pivotal part in the care provided to individuals dealing with Alzheimer's disease. It is essential to recognize that the dynamics between the caregiver and the care recipient can significantly impact the quality of care. Caregivers often face challenges in balancing the need for structure, routine, and boundaries with the care recipient's desire for independence and autonomy. The caregiver's ability to navigate these complexities can influence the overall well-being of the individual with Alzheimer's. Moreover, the caregiver's role extends beyond physical care; emotional and psychological support is equally important. Providing a safe and secure environment for someone with Alzheimer's is essential in managing their short-term memory lapses and cognitive challenges. By establishing a sense of familiarity and comfort, caregivers can help alleviate the anxiety and confusion that often accompany memory loss. Incorporating elements of the past into the present care routine can be beneficial in creating a sense of continuity and stability for individuals with Alzheimer's. Memories of the past can serve as anchors, providing a sense of identity and connection to their personal history. Additionally, reminiscing about past experiences can evoke positive emotions and enhance the overall quality of life for the individual. Ultimately, the caregiver's role is multifaceted and requires a deep understanding of the individual's unique needs and preferences. By fostering a compassionate and supportive relationship, caregivers can create a nurturing environment that promotes the well-being and dignity of those living with Alzheimer's disease.

Crickets. Never to answer any questions. Simply lots of accusations and blame. July 2024 is coming in hot. The comment didn't go unnoticed, and it truly resonated with us. Your voice is valued and appreciated, as it adds a unique perspective to the conversation. We are grateful for your willingness to share your thoughts and insights, as they contribute to a richer and more diverse discussion. Your input helps create a sense of community and fosters a spirit of collaboration. Thank you for taking the time to express yourself and for being an active participant in our dialogue. The comment didn't go unnoticed, and it truly resonated with us. Your voice is valued and appreciated, as it adds a unique perspective to the conversation. We are grateful for your willingness to share your thoughts and insights, as they contribute to a richer and more diverse discussion. Your input helps create a sense of community and fosters a spirit of collaboration. Thank you for taking the time to express yourself and for being an active participant in our dialogue. It has been five long years since the conflict began, yet the elusive concept of peace remains just out of reach. The passage of time has only served to deepen the wounds and widen the divides that separate the opposing factions. Despite numerous attempts at negotiation and mediation, the situation seems to have reached a stalemate, with neither side willing to yield an inch. The scars of war run deep, in the hearts and minds of those affected. The toll of this prolonged conflict is immeasurable, with countless losses. The constant state of uncertainty and fear has taken a heavy toll on the mental and emotional well-being of all involved.

It's impossible for me to fabricate this. I'm being accused of creating chaos for the outside world when the reality is I extended an olive branch that I was compelled to offer because of a failed outing, for three reasons: You are unaware of what you are unaware of. You don't pay attention when you are provided with all the necessary tools to prevent it from happening. I'm not going to assist you - I have more pressing matters to deal with than this recurring nonsense that keeps showing up at my doorstep every three months. Until the next occasion... ~L Day 2 of dramatic chaos in the life of a caregiver dealing with the challenges of Alzheimer's disease can be an emotionally taxing and overwhelming experience. The unpredictability and memory loss associated with Alzheimer's can create a sense of constant turmoil and confusion for both the patient and the caregiver. The caregiver may find themselves navigating through a rollercoaster of emotions, from frustration and sadness to moments of joy and connection. The outside world refuses to see the chaos they create by not understanding the scope of fear their actions create and how long it will continue due to short-term memory loss and content and context lost. In 2023, the advancements in Alzheimer's research and caregiving techniques may offer some hope and support for those dealing with this difficult disease. However, the day-to-day reality of caring for a loved one with Alzheimer's can still be filled with challenges and obstacles. The caregiver may need to constantly adapt to the changing needs and behaviors of the patient while also finding ways to take care of their well-being and mental health. The emotional rollercoaster experienced by a caregiver dealing with Alzheimer's disease is a profound and complex journey that delves into the depths of human emotions. The heart-wrenching moments of witnessing a loved one's memories slip away slowly contrast with the inspiring displays of unwavering dedication and love that the caregiver demonstrates. This journey is not just about providing physical care; it is about offering emotional support, understanding, and compassion in the face of a relentless disease that chips away at the very core of a person's identity. Amidst the challenges and uncertainties that each day brings, the caregiver discovers reservoirs of strength within themselves that they never knew existed. They find solace in the small victories – a fleeting moment of recognition, a shared smile, or a brief return to lucidity – that remind them of the person they are caring for beyond the veil of Alzheimer's. These moments of connection become beacons of light in the darkness, guiding the caregiver through the turbulent waters of caregiving. Navigating the complexities of Alzheimer's requires a delicate balance between patience, empathy, and self-care. The caregiver learns to adapt to the ever-changing needs of their loved one, to communicate through gestures and expressions when words fail, and to find moments of beauty and joy in the midst of chaos. They become adept at reading between the lines of confusion and frustration, offering comfort and reassurance in moments of distress. Ultimately, the journey of a caregiver facing Alzheimer's is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the power of love in the face of adversity. It is a journey marked by profound sorrow and profound beauty, by moments of heartbreak and moments of grace. Through it all, the caregiver emerges as a pillar of strength and a beacon of hope, embodying the true meaning of compassion and selflessness in the most challenging of circumstances.

Some days are just harder than others. There isn't a specific reason or event. Nothing to explain the discontent. It just... is. I started journaling many years ago to be able to one day go back and know that memory wasn't left to chance. The specifics of a real-time or an experience that was noteworthy. Today is a version of something not yet truly realized. To understand is to truly live in my little world of chaos and uncertainty of memory care as a caregiver with a focus on short-term memory loss in the diagnosis of Alzheimer's for a highly intelligent human. The real-life experiences and the challenges or opportunities found in so many decades blended into the continuum of time. Being a caregiver for someone with Alzheimer's is a unique journey that requires immense patience, empathy, and resilience. It involves navigating through the complexities of memory loss, witnessing the gradual fading of cherished memories, and finding ways to connect with a person whose reality may constantly shift. Each day brings its challenges and triumphs, creating a tapestry of experiences that shape both the caregiver and the individual receiving care. The intricacies of memory care go beyond the physical tasks of caregiving; they delve into the emotional and psychological realms of both parties involved. It's about creating moments of joy and comfort amidst the confusion and frustration that can often accompany Alzheimer's disease. It's about finding beauty in the small victories, whether it's a fleeting moment of recognition or a shared smile that transcends words. As a caregiver, one learns to embrace the unpredictability of each day, to find solace in the routine yet be prepared for the unexpected twists and turns that may arise. It's a delicate balance of structure and flexibility, of holding on to the past while living fully in the present. Through it all, the bond between caregiver and patient deepens, forged in the shared experiences of laughter, tears, and everything in between. Short-term memory loss sucks. Details wrapped in a tiny bow of uncertainty are never found in the correct chronological order. Ego and pride keep every shred of independence and control under wraps. Reflecting on these moments of inner turmoil and self-exploration, it becomes clear that the human experience is a complex tapestry of emotions, memories, and aspirations. Each entry in the journal serves as a snapshot of a particular moment in time, capturing the essence of a fleeting thought or a profound realization. Through the act of journaling, I am able to navigate the spiderweb of my own mind, unraveling the threads of confusion and doubt that often cloud my perception. As I delve deeper into the pages of my journal, I am confronted with a mosaic of experiences that have shaped my identity and influenced my decisions. The juxtaposition of joy and sorrow, success and failure, creates a rich tapestry of life that is both beautiful and chaotic. Each entry is a testament to the resilience of the human spirit, a reminder that even in the darkest moments, there is a glimmer of hope waiting to be discovered. Through the lens of my journal, I can make sense of the seemingly random events that shape my existence. The act of writing allows me to sift through the noise of everyday life, distilling moments of clarity and insight from the chaos of uncertainty. In this way, journaling becomes not just a record of the past, but a tool for understanding the present and shaping the future. To explain sounds exhausting and frustrating, or even difficult. It isn't any of these things, and yet it's all of them together and all at once. On repeat, the only thing to know is that if we are calm, it is calm. If we are stressed, it is chaos. If things move too quickly, it's discouraging, and if it's too much, it's time to fully shut down: body and mind. The changes are comforted by acceptance and understanding, but that's not enough when the day is long and the night even longer. She embodies the spirit of a true warrior in every aspect of her life, displaying unwavering loyalty to those who invest their time in her. Whether it's just five fleeting minutes or hours on end, she approaches every moment with relentless determination and an indomitable spirit. Like a valiant soldier on the battlefield, she never shies away from a challenge, always ready to fight for what she believes in. Her resilience is unmatched, standing tall and unwavering in the face of adversity, regardless of the outcome. Her commitment to her values and her unyielding dedication to those she cares about make her a formidable force to be reckoned with, a true warrior in every sense of the word. This is what it looks like every day in the caregiving of an intelligent mind and unwavering belief that it was all worth it. Fuck that shit. Despite the challenges faced in memory care today, we remain steadfast and resilient. Tomorrow beckons with the promise of a new beginning, urging us to embrace it with hope and determination. As we navigate through the complexities of each day, let us not forget to find solace and joy in the simple pleasures that the present moment offers. The arrival of our favorite time of year brings with it a sense of warmth and nostalgia, filling our hearts with anticipation and excitement. It is a season to cherish, to create lasting memories, and to revel in the beauty of nature's transformation. So, as we bid farewell for now, let us carry forward the strength we have gained from today's challenges, and greet tomorrow with optimism and grace. Until we meet again, may each moment be filled with peace and gratitude.

Some would call my writing style a stream of consciousness; some would also say it's stunted, cold, and boring. To each their own... It is imperative to get thoughts recorded somewhere for reflection, the balance of controlled chaos in the mass hysteria of all the things that can happen, change, plateau, and then change again. Writing transcends mere communication for me; it is a profound journey into the depths of my psyche, a tool to navigate the intricate spiderwebs of my thoughts and emotions. Each written word acts as a beacon, illuminating the hidden corners of my mind and revealing the essence of my existence in its rawest form. My writing style, often perceived as unconventional or detached by some, is, in reality, a reflection of my commitment to unfiltered expression. By allowing my thoughts to flow freely onto the page, I embrace the vulnerability laying bare my innermost self. Through vulnerability, I discover deep truths, untangle emotions, and find clarity within chaos. Writing serves as a tool for capturing brief moments of inspiration, safeguarding memories, and encapsulating my essence at various stages of life. It is a process of self-discovery that involves delving into the depths of my identity to uncover the pure essence of who I am. With each stroke of the pen, I delve deeper into the tapestry of my thoughts, weaving a narrative that encapsulates the essence of who I am and what I strive to understand. Writing is not just a mirror but a portal to self-awareness, a medium through which I explore the depths of my soul and embrace the beauty of introspection. Living hour to hour and day to day can feel overwhelming at times, especially when energy levels are low and caring seems like a distant concept. The constant worry over things beyond our control can easily lead to increased anxiety and confusion, making it difficult to focus on what truly matters. However, amidst the chaos and panic, there is a beacon of hope: Stepping onto that platform, whether figurative or physical, brings about a sense of clarity and purpose. It becomes a space where distractions fade away, leaving only a focus on the specifics. It presents an opportunity to set aside earthly worries and channel all attention toward content and context. Thus, despite hurdles and uncertainties, the resolve to make things right and embrace the limelight endures, offering a glimmer of hope in challenging times. Recalling the forgotten details through written words and videos helps soothe the moment and untangle the complexities of harsh past realities and the delicate equilibrium of controlled disorder. Without support, we are adrift. Without gentle guidance, we are fearful, angry, and adrift. Loss forever remains the greatest fear: ~ Who would want to exist knowing they are out of sync with reality and aware of the trials that lie ahead? Similarly, living each day in a way that five minutes won't drag on like hours, and the hours don't loom so ominously that each moment blurs into the past. Who's hiding?

Following a recent episode of Diary of Dazey Thoughts, a guest made some comments that have prompted me to address specific allegations. The discussion took place just 20 hours ago on a post that is three months old, demonstrating significant interaction with the content. It is always intriguing to revisit older posts and observe how they continue to generate conversations over time. In this instance, the guest's remarks have brought a fresh perspective to the topic, prompting me to reconsider the original content and explore alternative viewpoints. It is crucial to engage with differing opinions in a positive manner, as they often offer valuable insights and a deeper comprehension of the subject. By delving further into this dialogue, we have the chance to enhance the conversation and foster a more inclusive and diverse community of readers and contributors. "Most people who say 'I don't play games' or Lie usually start it all." I apologize, but auto-correct and spell check insisted we clean up the sentence in the picture above. A couple of Dazey Thoughts come to mind: I'm not like most people. Throughout my life, I have been aware of my role and the people involved. I have worked alongside someone, owned property, and been friends with her for over 30 years. When I turned 23, she and I became business partners to help her recover from the financial difficulties caused by her ex. We split the LLC 51/49 as partners, and I owned the first salon on paper. I purchased the first house, sold it two years later, and then we bought the second one together with a 50/50 split. This cycle continued over time. We argued, disagreed, and worked together with a bond you will never understand because you don't have it. I don't have to play games or lie; I still live it today. Do you even know this is the longest she has ever lived in one place for more than 7 years for 55 fucking years?!? This narrative illustrates a unique and enduring relationship that transcends typical partnerships. The bond described here is not just about business or property ownership; it's about shared experiences, struggles, and triumphs. The journey of becoming business partners after overcoming financial challenges showcases resilience and unwavering support. The commitment to each other is evident in the equal distribution of responsibilities and assets, highlighting a true partnership built on trust and mutual respect. The story also delves into the complexities of the relationship, acknowledging that disagreements and arguments are natural even in the strongest of partnerships. However, what sets this bond apart is the ability to work through differences and emerge stronger together. The authenticity and honesty in their interactions are emphasized, contrasting with superficial connections that rely on deceit and manipulation. The reference to the longevity of living in one place for more than seven years after 55 years adds a poignant layer to the narrative. It hints at a history of instability and change, making the current stability and partnership even more significant. The shared history and deep understanding between the individuals involved create a connection that is truly profound and enduring. Same question from me 3 years later: Why would I start a conflict to make her life more difficult, which only puts strain on mine and those close to me? "You hide behind a computer screen and copy and paste but to scared to dare say what you type." Your unedited words are posted anonymously. I shared the picture... I'm not avoiding, just trying to bring order to the chaos in my life. You all are like an unpaid job to me, this Dazey Diary wouldn't be possible without the contributions of others. I wouldn't need to seek professional help to affirm that I am fine dealing with the constant criticisms from others. You are the sole source of stress and concern in our lives. It's time to mature or get a new perspective... time is running out for you. "Putting people's lives in the public general is starting shit, which you obviously do quite well." It seems that your existence is not centered here, but rather on the individual who binds us together. I am not familiar with your personal life. I am unaware of your daily activities or your social circles, and I have not inquired about them. Moreover, I never involve any of you in conversations with her. Nevertheless, I frequently hear about all of you when she encounters difficulties. Some time ago, I was questioned about why I chose not to disconnect from all of you and cease all communication. The answer is always the same: she hasn't given up and I won't break my promises to her. That's the best of it, we fight the fight till she gives up. I won't quit her. " This is all about you and how you are pissed off that you are taking care of the one programmed to love you . SO SAD!" This journey has never been about me. It's about the person I am grateful to accompany. She chose the current path we are on, and I willingly agreed. She owned two properties, but due to others, she barely lived in them. She decided to sell them and live under our roof. Her life is here because of everyone else, not hers. It's deplorable to send her down a problematic path each time someone throws a temper tantrum, and others comply. You write "programmed" as if she's a puppet. How dare you belittle her existence. How deplorable are you to send her down this path each time you have a temper tantrum and the others are compliant with it? Repeatedly, I pose my inquiries to a group that consistently avoids responding and fails to confront the stark contrast between reality and their distorted perception.: Who's hiding? What is my end game? What is your end game? What do you hope to achieve? Why would I or anyone here go to such lengths? What the actual fuck????? I was sent a text last night after she had locked up for the night. That led to a 3-hour conversation about the Others and the challenges. I have videos of most to help when the context fades and the content is forever lost. It was a system created a few years back for clarity and to calm her. She will re-watch herself and hear her words when the times are rough and a reset hasn't formed. Technology has become our friend, not an enemy to be feared. She has been sheltered from the majority of this over the years by the ones closest to her. The truce ending was not mentioned in this house until the blocking started and copies of the texts of this blog were sent to her, reminding her that there are real problems that were never addressed or fixed in the long relationships formed by a bad decision in judgment that can never be erased. However, it keeps coming in waves from another person and never seems to end. Day 4 of this bullshit. I ask about double standards and they are at war for what? Amidst the chaos of conflicting emotions and external pressures, the solace found in technology becomes a beacon of hope. These videos, carefully crafted to preserve moments of clarity and reassurance, serve as a lifeline in turbulent times. The power of revisiting one's own words, captured in the past, offers a unique form of self-reflection and guidance. As the waves of uncertainty and challenges continue to crash, the reliance on these digital memories becomes a testament to resilience and adaptation in the face of adversity. "you know how she is" NO! No one else knows what it means... No details, no explanations except for vague saltiness looking a lot like greed and hate. What is it that makes it so hard to see it through her eyes and ours?? Your relationships are your own, not mine. What you create, I can no longer help fix. When will you learn??? The complexity of human relationships often lies in the intricate web of emotions, perceptions, and experiences that shape our interactions with others. It can be challenging to truly understand someone else's perspective, especially when emotions like greed and hate cloud our judgment. The struggle to empathize and see things from another person's point of view can lead to misunderstandings and conflict. In the midst of these challenges, it is crucial to recognize the boundaries that exist within relationships. Each individual's journey is unique, and what one person creates in their relationships may not be easily understood or fixed by others. It requires a level of acceptance and respect for the autonomy of each person's experiences and choices. Learning from these interactions is a continuous process that requires introspection and growth. It is through reflection and understanding that we can navigate the complexities of relationships more effectively. By acknowledging our limitations and striving to learn from our experiences, we can cultivate healthier and more fulfilling connections with those around us. Alzheimer's awareness plays a crucial role in supporting individuals who are involved in daily care or communication with those experiencing short-term memory loss. This condition can lead to a profound sense of disorientation and confusion, where the individual may struggle to distinguish between past memories and the present moment. It is essential for caregivers and loved ones to have a deep understanding of Alzheimer's disease to provide effective support and compassion. By raising awareness about Alzheimer's, we can create a more inclusive and empathetic environment for those affected by this challenging condition. Through education and awareness, we can enhance our ability to communicate with and care for individuals living with Alzheimer's, ultimately improving their quality of life and well-being.

This post is a work in progress, but I love the message. “Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored.” The common themes in this Dazey Diary: Vague accusations Unrealistic expectations Lack of understanding Lack of real communication It is a significant shift in perspective to realize that the burden of explaining daily struggles or challenges no longer rests on my shoulders. Instead of feeling compelled to educate others about the intricacies of navigating each hour or day, I have come to understand that resources like Google or specialized classes on Alzheimer's awareness can serve as valuable tools for those seeking to broaden their knowledge. Embracing the concept of change as an inevitable part of life, it becomes clear that what was once familiar may no longer be the same, prompting a need for adaptation and acceptance. My primary focus now lies in safeguarding the well-being and contentment of the individual under my care, rather than catering to external influences or demands of The Others. By prioritizing the health and happiness of those within our community, I am better equipped to provide a nurturing environment that fosters a sense of security and support. This shift in mindset underscores the importance of creating a space where residents can thrive and feel valued, free from the pressures of external expectations. “Someone pushing you to be better is not an attack.” The push that led us all to this point was for the one I am honored to be connected to and respect each day for getting up and living the 'weirdest' experiences to date. “Do you know how weird it is to feel your brain shrinking?” The push was to help others stay connected in a way beneficial to her and maybe even for them... I mean, the hope was there; the reality was harsh. There will be more on this when time permits but I'll leave it with this… Changes are indeed inevitable when it comes to the daily care and communication challenges associated with memory loss, especially in the context of caring for individuals affected by Alzheimer's disease. The impact of memory loss on communication can be profound, as it often requires caregivers to adapt their approach and techniques to effectively connect with their loved ones. It is imperative to acknowledge that individuals outside the realm of memory loss may struggle to grasp the full scope of challenges faced by those dealing with this condition, particularly Alzheimer's disease. The complexities involved in caring for someone with memory loss extend far beyond what meets the eye, encompassing a myriad of emotional, psychological, and practical obstacles that can significantly impact both the affected individual and their caregivers. Furthermore, the importance of adaptability in navigating these challenges cannot be emphasized enough. Caregivers and family members must be prepared to explore and adopt new techniques and communication methods, even if they initially seem unconventional or unfamiliar. Embracing these changes allows caregivers to cultivate a more empathetic and supportive environment, fostering stronger connections and enhancing the overall quality of life for those grappling with memory loss. To effectively assist individuals in coping with the daily struggles associated with memory loss, caregivers must establish a sense of emotional security and understanding. This safe space not only aids in addressing the practical aspects of daily living but also plays a crucial role in promoting overall well-being and mental health.