'They' - the term that speaks to those who don't or can't see that ...
Not everything is as it seems.
They just don't get it.
They think I need professional help.
They think I don't understand.
They think I am the worst kind of human.
The accusations and chaos thrown in the mix get complicated depending on the side you sit on.
I am not here to judge, simply to even the playing field consisting of complete nonsense.
What is the fight?
Bullshit is my go-to answer with a bit of roll-the-eye bluntness that pisses off the peeps. They want a villain to make themselves feel better.
Here I am.
I make no pretense. I am who I am. I have not changed. To hear the gossip, you would think I am unhinged, but the reality is that I'm just honest and without a filter. I'm not scared to share because I have nothing to hide. I am not remorseful because I give it my very best and never quit the important role.
It has been said, more than once, that I am like a dog with a bone.
Dazeydogs was created!
Here is my bone: I won't back down.
To know me is to understand three fundamental truths:
Ask, and I will answer.
Blame, and I will defend to distinguish between the actual truth and the misdirection used to spin a narrative that aligns with "he said, she said" triangulation.
Most are not equipped to fight this bullshit of jealousy and deceit that started so many decades ago.
My memory is long and detailed. I lived it, I know it, and I moved past it long before the fallout of becoming the one caregiver with solid attention to detail and the ability to research before I speak.
What is the fight?
They don't get it.
They don't want to get it and no longer have any power to persuade a narrative that never was reality.
Truths:
I was loyal.
I was honest.
I contributed to the chaos.
I fought back.
I will never back down.
They just don't get it...
Help was offered.
Help wasn't wanted.
Help is gone.
Contributing to chaos:
If you do not stand for something, you fall for anything. Early in life, it was essential to compromise for peacekeeping. I made my fair share of compromises and am at fault for this. I could have and should have changed this path in my early 20s. I had options. I could have left. I could have changed the direction I took.
That would have devastated the one.
I'm not about that and never was.
Brutal honesty, I knew then and still to this day where my loyalty lies.
That's just how 'he, she, they, or them' are. If you can't stand for something~
If you are 'okay' with how it was~
If you won't help change the path~
They are right:
I got what I wanted.
Peace.
On my 49th birthday, I got exactly what I had asked for so many years before.
The ability to live without the drama surrounding The Others.
I no longer support people who exploit for personal gain.
I no longer support those who are loyal solely due to a last name.
I no longer give freely to those who do not deserve it.
I simply NO LONGER!!!
Shout out to the ones who made it so easy to walk away—the last 4 years taught me where to put my energy. What adds value to a healthy life moving forward?
Not finding a way IS not caring about how the future would look.
Not finding a solution IS not wanting one.
Not standing for something, IS losing everything the fight was about ~ supposedly.
Early on, I was bullied and beaten down for my care of another. My loyalty was questioned because I spoke out against someone else's mistreatment. I struggled to find support and maintain my balance, but now I don't hesitate to defend... I am all in, without regret, remorse, or lack of understanding. I know my role; do you know yours?
Today is a new day, and they just don't get it. That is the reality of the second day of my 49th year. There were so many chances to change the future with so little regard for me. But I will sit on repeat:
IT WAS NEVER ABOUT ME.
No compassion.
No empathy.
No understanding.
No possibility of putting an ego or pride aside to see a differing view from the one who spent 30 years side by side. Twelve hours a day, five days a week, and weekends, too, when I was in town.
This was always the way and has not changed!
OFF THE TABLE
Secrets.
Misdirection.
Triangulation.
Bullying.
Veiled threats.
Dishonesty
The one question that comes up daily is a reflection of the invaluable role you play in the lives of those around you. It speaks volumes about the impact you have and the significance of your presence. "What would the others do without you?" is a question that underscores the deep sense of reliance and dependence that others have on you. It highlights the fact that you are a pillar of strength, support, and guidance for those in your circle.
It's a good thing I am healthy, as she hasn't yet had to face that fear. Being healthy is a blessing that allows you to continue being the dependable and reliable individual that others look up to. The fear of not being able to fulfill your role due to health issues can be a daunting thought, but for now, it is a fear that remains at bay. Your well-being is not just important for yourself, but also for those who depend on you, as it ensures that you can continue to be the source of comfort and stability in their lives.
Until the next time...
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